As I write this, we are headed to MD Anderson for consultation with both the Leukemia Doctor and the Transplant Doctor. Hopefully, by the time we leave, we will know about a potential donor or two and what will be involved in the next step. It would be nice if we had a transplant date.
This is at the same time, exciting and a bit frightening. Exciting because the end result can free us from the tyranny that is CLL (Chronic Lymphatic Leukemia). Frightening because the journey is uncharted.
This reminds me of a dream I had years ago. In the dream, I faced a raging river on a dark night. It was imperative that I get to the other side (as in many dreams, I don’t know why). I had no way to get there, no boat, no bridge, no help at all. A voice tells me to take the first step. There are stones that will get me safely across. I hesitate. I don’t see a stone. The voice again says “Step ahead. Trust me. The stones are there.” With a great deal of trepidation, I take a step. Sure enough, just below the surface of the turbulent waters is a stone. I rest there. “Take another step,” the voice encourages. I’m beginning to trust the voice more. I step out. Another stone. Then another. And another. Very shortly, the swirling waters are behind, the far shore is under my feet, the storm has passed, and blessed sunshine lights my way.
This trip is the first step onto the first stone. I’ve learned to trust the voice. Together, Melanie and I – with you by our sides – will continue to step into the dark tempestuous waters. He is here. He will never leave us. All is well. I know the other side is within reach.
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